Recently I’ve been kind of disappointed in the actual content of my blog. I feel like I’m not taking time to think and really perfect my writing and editing which is leading to more content with a lower quality rather than fewer high quality posts. So what does this mean? It means I feel a bit off track right now. I’m finding myself worried about insignificant things and focused on the wrong aspects of my life. I’ve noticed that I’ve become a little bit more antagonizing and that’s because I’ve been dealing with some friendship issues. People who I love have not been returning the same level of care that I’ve shown them which has been frustrating but mostly it just results in my hurt feelings rather than anything productive. Because of this, I’ve felt the need to overcompensate by blogging for views and Twitter followers instead of remembering the real reason why I do and should blog. I blog because I like to write, and I know that I’m no Steinbeck or Fitzgerald but I like writing down what I’m feeling and thinking. I don’t blog for followers and popularity and views and I’m disappointed in myself for caring about those things more than doing this for myself which is the whole reason I began this process. Now I know I’ll probably seem hypocritical when I post this on Facebook but I really am just trying to let everyone know what’s up in case I don’t post as often which, in turn is more hypocritical because I’m assuming people are taking time out of their lives to read this.
Anyway, I’ve deleted my Twitter account because it’s causing more tension between me and people I care about than it’s worth. I’m not trying to make any sort of statement by doing this either. I am just trying to help myself out by eliminating the sources of negativity that I can control because life’s really too short.
So that’s that. Twitter has been showing me sides of people that I’d rather not see, and in turn making me think and say some quite spiteful things. I don’t want to be that girl who tweets about people she’s angry with on Twitter, and I know I have been that girl. Anyway, the point of this post was to let you know that I’m going to start focusing on my writing more, so you might not be hearing as much from me in the next few weeks but I’ll try to work on some new things.
Sorry for the drama, but I hope this is step one for eliminating all of that stuff permanently.
Thanks to anyone who read this.